MESSED UP

Chapter 5


He took a step back as I looked at him

-Now I am gonna get in water and take you to there
There was an evil grin on his face

- Why are you going first?

-Cuz I am gonna take you on me
I smiled He took a step into the water lied down and gave me his hand I took a step and got into the water He said ‘Lie down on me I want to feel your body’ Ohh my his sentences were hot I did as I am told His hands were on me I was touching him discovering his body under my fingertips I was feeling his breath His smell was good as much as drive a girl insane I started from his face His skin was so soft touched his cheeks than his chin than move my way to his neck Kissed him from there Than my hands were on his chest His chesthair was so good I kissed him from there too than move my hand down I was kissing him all over and I came there His considerable length ohh my he was going to be inside me in a few mins with it He said ‘I want to touch you too so its your turn to lie down to here’ I did as I am told He started from my hair His long fingers were between them Than he moved his way down to my back His fingers were slowly discovering it He came to my hip and from there moved his way down to my leg My skin was burning under his touches He kissed me and I parted my legs for him He smiled and kissed me once more Than he pushed his two fingers inside me Moved them in and out hardly I cried out I was expecting a circle but he didnt do it He said apart your legs further I did as I am told He grabbed me from each side of my belly and slid into me It was not normal but not hard as he has done before He started to move with a normal rythm After a while it became so normal to me I said ‘Rob pls harder’ He said ‘Be careful about what you wish for baby’ I said ‘pls’ He started to move He said ‘Put your fingers rigth over here’ He meant nearly the place that he has just slid into me I did and said ‘why’ with my breath which I could obviously say not regular He said ‘make a circle’ I did and at the same time he was moving inside me I said ‘Awww it makes me feel you more’ He smiled and said ‘Continue’ I started to do it with his rythm and I was crying out as he was fast and I was doing it I stopped to do it He frowned and said ‘dont stop to do it’ so I started again and he moved fast and hard I said ‘pls Rob ahhrrrr’ I was feeling him more I was sensitive and he was doing it not hard as he used to do before I cried out again He said ‘no baby dont come not now I want to be long’ and he pulled out of me He said ‘I am gonna take you from behind’ I stood up and he got my back He slid into me again and started to move and I realized that he was absorbing the effect I said ‘You are gonna continue from front right?’ He said ‘Yes like we have just done’ and smiled That smile was sexy as hell I cried out and he pulled out of me I lied down again and he was between my legs He slid into me hard this time I groan and he said ‘your fingers’ I did what I have done at first He started to move hardly as I was doing circle I cried out He was moving fast and hard Than I felt his full length I said ‘pls’ while I was crying out He pushed inside me harder He was really fucking hard and making me more sensitive I said ‘Ahhrr Rob pls this is so much’ He said ‘wait’ and started to move faster I screamed and he continued I was just hardly stand that I was biting my lips holding him with one of my hands but nothing was enough What he was doing to me was my-blowingly great I cried out and said ‘Rob pls’ He didnt seem to hear and I loudly begged ‘pls sir pls’ He suddenly stoped He pulled out of me and said ‘what did you said’ He was shocked as I understood from his voice I said ‘I called you sir’

-WHY did you use that word?

-You didnt hear me and I just said it automaticly so I dont know why
My voice was low

-Dont Do That To Me

-Do what?
I was surprised by his reaction

-Dont use that word and dont act like that
He was like telling something really important and warning

Than something started to twirl around my head it was obvious that he had something about this before I said ‘whats wrong with using that word you are hiding something I can see it’ I was not feeling good He said ‘I just..’ and stopped ‘Talk to me sir pls’ I was begging in my mind but I kept myself quiet and he started to talk

-I told you you just dont know what you are letting yourself to get into

-What Is Wrong With That Word? How I am acting? I need to know what you are thinking otherwise I will go on like this as I dont know how I can act with another way

I was just trying to find out what was going on

MESSED-UP

CHAPTER 4

We both put our clothes on again and he started the engine I said ‘Rob nothing can hurt me more than that if you leave me’ He said ‘you are wrong’ he was talking like dark I asked ‘Why’ with a hope to see whats behind that side He said ‘One day will come and you will visit the set’ I said ‘So’ Rob said ‘Think that if its a bed scene You are gonna see me with another girl’ I said ‘Rob its your job I have to take it’ He said ‘You wouldnt have to take it if I wouldnt be famous’ I said ‘What Rob you are thinking with the opposite way of mine’ He said ‘What’ I said ‘Yeah if you wouldnt be famous I wouldnt even know that you are exists’ He said ‘You cant have a normal relationship with me’ I said ‘May I cant but what if thats what I want’ Rob said ‘You dont know what you let yourself to get into’ I said ‘I know’ with an automatic reaction He said ‘Tell me than’ He was nervous I said ‘I am just trying to be with someone that I shouldnt even dare to talk but somehow that one says he loves me and he has my everything’ He said ‘You are just stepping into a life which is shining on the black’ I said ‘I wont take step back’ He said ‘Dont be so sure’ I said ‘Why’ He said ‘Lets talk about something else now Tell me about your life before we have met’ I said ‘Well there was not too much difference after I came here you know studying hanging out with friends but sometimes I miss my family my mom my dad my little brother now I am away from them’ He said ‘Why did you came here for exacly’ I said ‘It was only for universty you know that I was studying at UCLA’ He said ‘So your universty is ending in this month you have two weeks’ I said ‘Yeah but I havent thought something to say them’ Rob looked into my eyes and said ‘You shouldnt stay here for me I dont worth that’ I couldnt keep it inside and said ‘Jesus Rob what makes you think that you dont worth that’ I was feeling like why he just dont understand There was no patient in my voice He looked into my eyes ‘I am not perfect but people believe that I dont even know how this -fucked famous up- life started’ I said ‘Thats your problem ok may you are not perfect but you are really good and you are not seeing it’ He said ‘Are you saying this for a man who cant even be nice to you’ I asked ‘Being nice to me’ He said ‘What am I doing to you while I am inside you’ I shocked and asked ‘Do you think you hurt me’ He said ‘It would be easier with someone else someone who can be kind’ He was saying this like he has thought about it before like he really believed it I cutted him and said ‘Who told you I want someone else’ My voice was calm but strong He said ‘You dont even know about this out of me god I cant believe that I tied you up’ I said ‘If to be honest it was hot’ He said ‘Ok but what I have done to you in this car you were screaming I could be gentle to you but I always want to fuck you hard and I am doing it’ He was talking like he is trying to convince met hat he is not good for me I said ‘Why do you always want to fuck me hard’ –I couldnt believe that I was talking like this- He said ‘Its because of this Fuck-me-now look’ I said ‘You mean you want to do it now’ He pulled over We were in front of his house He said ‘Yeah and I need to have you soon lets go inside and have some bath’ he winked and I melted He put his arm on my shoulder so I felt his body’s length against mine He was so yummy in those tight jeans and black t-shirt I said ‘You know that you are the only thing that I want’ He said ‘I know baby and thats why I am scared I am important for you more than I deserve’ He was serious while saying this I said ‘You worth that believe me’ My voice was full of with the message *believe it* He said ‘Sometimes you are not that relax with me’ He was talking like its an important question for him I said ‘Because you are over-thinking sometimes and I cant decide when you will do that’ He was unlocking the door We got inside and He said ‘I want you to be mine but I want to go when I want I cant do both I told you that I have never been into a girl that much I dont know how I feel like this I love you and I dont want to think about future I just want to live you now’ I said ‘Do it than’ He said ‘Give me your jacket’ He helped me to took it off And I took his jacket off He started to kiss me The kiss got hotter and hotter I took his t-shirt off than he took mine off His hands came to the buttons of my jeans and he unbuttoned it so I throw them to the floor I kissed his neck touched there than moved my way down and unbuttoned his jeans We were about to come to the bathroom He went to the big hottub and opened the water He added foam The smell was sweet and welcoming He undo my bra with one move I only left with my panties He said ‘Strip them for me’ I said ‘Ok but how’ He said ‘Just do it as you feel think what you feel for me’ I closed my eyes and tried to concentrate His hands were on each side of my belly so I concentrate on them I touched his fingers and did a little dance between them I turned my back to him took a step beck we were so close than I turned to him again hook my index finger to one side than turned back again and opened my legs Hook the other other side as I was closing my legs I took a step back to him and met with his fingers again and slid it under them and throw it to the ground He said ‘Now I want to be inside you do you know how sexy you look’ I said ‘No’ He made me turn to him grabbed my leg and wrapped it around him I was feeling his need I got closer He said ‘I dont want to slid into you in here I am gonna take you in there’

MESSED UP

CHAPTER 3

He said ‘I should have understood from his reactions’ He was nervous He was talking like suffering and it hurt me but I asked ‘understand what’ Rob continued with the same voice which makes my hearth burn and said ‘he wants you’ I said ‘what’ I was shocked Rob said ‘He wants what he couldnt do that day’ His voice was taking an angry tone I said ‘no he doesnt want something like this I dont think so’ Rob said ‘I read it from his looks he touches you as much as he can but he is hiding it’ there was anger and mystery in his voice I said ‘how are you saying this we both are friends and thats it’ I was nervous and trying to convince him Rob said ‘no he is acting like friend but he wants you to be up for more’ His voice was getting colder and he was talking like hate it I said ‘you are over-thinking this time’ He said ‘no just saw it he freak it out when I said what we have done’ I said ‘jesus Rob he didnt even talk about this out of a few words’ Rob said ‘look I am not trying to make you hate him or something but I have seen it in his every move that he made to you he is acting really well but an actor cant get the other one he wants you he wants what I have and thats driving me crazy I dont want him to be around you’ He was nervous and serious I said ‘you are serious’ He said ‘yes I am’ with a cold voice I didnt like it and said ‘you are mad at me and you are talking like suffering’ I was so sad He said ‘I am mad at him not you!’ His voice was like I didnt understand He continued with a soft way ‘And yeah I cant even think that I loose you’ I just stopped My hearth came to my mouth I was just thinking that he loves me I was trying to get it but now he was saying he doesnt want to loose me I just talked and said whats on my mind ‘Rob I stil cant believe that you love me now you are saying you cant loose me its going so fast but I am so much into you I am in love with you like you are another world for me which can I leave the other one for it’ My breath was hitched while saying it He said ‘no dont do that I cant be that important for you’ I could understant that he has just panicked from his voice so I said ‘why’ He shook his head and said ‘you believe that I am perfect but I am not’ I said ‘what yes you are’ He said ‘no’ He was talking like he is so sure I said ‘Am I important for you’ He said ‘of course you are dont you see’ so I continued ‘Than why I cant make you important’ He said ‘cuz if you make me that important I can hurt you without knowing it I have never became loyal with someone I have never been into a girl like this before’ His voice was like that he is trying to tell something to himself but I panicked after these sentences Does he mean that he can leave me one day even if I am important I was frowning as the thoughts started to twirl around my head He said ‘whats wrong’ with a voice that shows I am important for him I said ‘do you mean that you can leave me one day’ I hardly finished the sentence as the thought even cant standable than couldnt look into his eyes as I havent the strength but he was looking at me with an unreadable expression Giving nothing away I said ‘should I take this silence as yes’ This time his lips were right over my ear He was not talking than those lips found mines and he kissed me on the lips I asked ‘what was this’ He said ‘this was the answer’ with a sweet voice I said ‘so this means that you wont’ There was a hope in my voice but it shouldnt be Stupid girl you are addicted to him He smiled and said ‘I dont think that I can leave you cuz I am in love with you but I can hurt you’ Sometimes it was hard to understand him What should I say for this

MESSED UP

CHAPTER 2

I said ‘I know but still…’ My voice was not nice as I didnt like what I was thinking Rob said ‘what ‘s wrong’ He was waiting for blow up Xavier said ‘ok we shouldnt talk about this now’ Rob told me to say it and I said ‘You wont like it so pls wait for the right time’ Rob said ‘Is it so serious’ I said ‘May not that serious but its not a thing that you would want to hear now’ Xavier looked at me I shook my head to the unwelcoming thought as I remember what happened that night Rob whispered me and said ‘you are gonna tell me when we left from here’ I said ‘I am not sure’ My voice was full of doubt He said ‘you will tell me or I wont touch you till you learn to behave like I want’ There was a threatening and sexy tone in his voice I said ‘jesus Rob you know that I cant stand this’ Xavier asked ‘Is he threatening you’ He was nervous I turned to Xavier and said ‘are you both reading each other’s mind’ They laughed at me and I smiled as the atmosphere got a little ligther Xavier’s phone was ringing so he hung up He was talking with someone from work as I understand He said ‘I have to go now but I am gonna see you again soon ok’ His voice was like he wants to be sure about it I said ‘sure’ Than he came and hugged me again and touched my chin I smiled He said ‘are you gonna tell him’ with a serious way I said ‘I dont know’ Xavier said ‘dont’ I just looked him He looked into my eyes and there was an unspoken conversation between us than he said ‘goodbye’ I said ‘see you’ He smiled turned back and walked away We were alone with Rob but I was affraid to look him in the eyes He grabbed my chin so I forced to look him He was looking into my eyes and hypnotizing me He asked ‘what happened that time’ His voice was showing that he was corious about know it I said ‘he didnt want met to tell you’ Rob kept looking into my eyes and said ‘dont do that’ I was aware of this voice He was using this whenever he does something on purpose I said ‘you are amazing me’ He smiled and said ‘tell me’ I frown and said ‘at first we both should calm down’ He said ‘than lets go and see what we can do for it’ with a playful voice I said ‘you can have me’ and smiled He said ‘here and now in the car’ my eyes widen but I said ‘ok’ with an excitement in me He took me to the car and we found a silent corner He said ‘on the back’ Than we both got in back of the car He kissed me It was a kind of kiss -I own you- Than he started to took my clothes off I took his clothes off In a few mins we both were naked He took me oh him we were nose to nose he nuzzled my hair I touched his neck than he kissed me and grabbed me with each side of my belly at the same time he was parting my legs Than he slid into me and took me by surprise I groan and he started to move I cried out between his movements into me It was a kind of –I own you- sex He was deep and fast He was fucking me hard really hard I was screaming He said

You

Are

The

Most

Amazing

Girl

Between his hard movements into me I said ‘you are perfect’ as I could do with my hitched breath He called my name and came Than I let it go so we both were breathless I couldnt move after he finished with me He was still in me and he said ‘I love you’ I said ‘I love you too’ than he kissed me and took me into his arms than pulled out of me I groan again He said ‘tell me now’ I said ‘ok but he wont learn that’ He said ‘he wont learn’ His voice was reasuring me I started to talk ‘Xavier came to my school at last year He was a new student but he was sweet kind and I was comfortable with him as friend so we were spending time together and we have common friends that we hung out some time like 4 or 6 people Than one day…’ I stopped Rob was listening carefully He was watching all my expressions He said ‘that day’ with a straight voice He was giving nothing away and I continued ‘our friends invited us to a party we said ok than we went there at first everything was normal’ My voice was changing as I was remembering this weird and fucked-up memory ‘we were drinking something’ Rob cutted me ‘did he let you to drink shit you shouldnt have drink’ I said ‘we didnt drink exacly just one beer for me and he drunk two’ I stopped so Rob said ‘what happened after you drunk’ He was nervous and wanted to know I continued ‘we realized that it was not a normal party and they invited us as a couple when they showed us a room’ My voice was changing and taking a dramatic tone Rob’s eyes widen he said ‘fuck it was a sex-party’ He was really really mad I said ‘yes they put us into the room so we got close to each other he kissed me and…’ Rob closed his eyes I closed mines and said ‘we were about to took all our clothes off’ I was telling these with a voice which shows how much I disturbed Rob was holding his breath ‘you were naked werent you’ His voice was cold I said ‘no but half naked’ Rob asked ‘how much’ ‘I was naked till my bra and panties and he was till his boxers’ Rob was holding his breath again so I went on ‘It was the effect of the beers cuz after that day we learnt they added it a kind of drug but at that time we both took a step back than apologized from each other as we got close more than we could take’ I stopped and waited for his reactions He wasnt saying anything Seconds were coming like days I said ‘I am sorry’ He opened his eyes He was looking like freak it out so I waited for sentences…

MESSED UP

CHAPTER 1

Xavier was calling again I said see he wont get back and shook my head Rob said hang it up with a normal voice I hung up the phone Xavier asked ‘why didnt you hang up’ I said ‘I wasnt available’ He asked ‘Is there something wrong’ His voice was like worried I said ‘no nothing wrong’ to reasure him He said ‘you are not telling the truth’ I said ‘Xavier can we talk about this when we met’ He said ‘ok I am gonna pick you up’ I said ‘Xavier I can come’ He said ‘hmm there are some differences on you’ I couldnt help my voice and said ‘you understood that’ He said ‘yes and I didnt like it btw we are meeting at 6 ok’ I said ‘ok but where’ he asked ‘where are you exacly now’ Holy shit ‘Its not important just tell me some place’ I was smiling as I was trying to be convincing to him Rob was stil watching me When I looked at him I saw his lips were pressed up a line I bited mine and said ‘sorry’ with a light voice He run his long fingers through his hair I was looking at him I forgot about Xavier than turned back with his asking voice ‘are you there jesus what happened to you’ I said ‘you will learn’ Xavier said ‘Forget about 6 I am going Seattle now and I want to see you in the place that we have met before’ I said ‘well ok … err coming than’ Xavier said ‘ok’ with a voice that shows he is waiting for something I said ‘I’ll see you than’ he said ‘ok see you’ Than I pressed no and looked Rob He was frowning His eyes were burning I said ‘look I am sorry I should have mention about him to you before’ Rob said ‘yes you should have but now .. tell me what he wants’ He seemed calm I said ‘he wants to see me in Seattle’ His eyes widen ‘See you in Seattle’ He was almost shouthing I said ‘Rob pls calm down its not far’ He said ‘I am coming’ Words were so clear and hard I said ‘ok but pls give me some time to talk with him’ He asked ‘why do you need this time’ I said ‘Cuz he will probably freak it out if he sees you directly’ Rob said ‘Are you that important for him’ He was talking like surprised I said ‘I am acting different and he realized that so he is gonna think you didnt let me’ He said ‘ok we will go than but I cant let him to hug you’ There was a little disturbed tone in his voice I said ‘but he will I cant stop him’ I was talking with a voice which is aware that is gonna happen Rob said ‘lets go now’ I was wearing something while he was smoking I said ‘you should quit’ He said ‘not now’ I said ‘all this is because of me you are mad at me’ I was feeling nervous Rob said ‘yeah I am mad at you cuz I can see that you cant tell him no’ He was talking normal Than we left from the yacth to his car We were travelling in silence since I found the strength to break it I said ‘You know that you own me with my everything why are you stil mad’ He looked in my eyes and said ‘I own you that is why I am mad someone else coming and claiming something on you’ I said ‘god you are over reacting’ I was talking laudly He said ‘we are gonna see’ like he knows what will happen than turned from the corner which takes us to the road that we will meet Xavier When I get out of from the car I saw him and he saw me so he came and hug me with lifting me up He said ‘hey I am worried about you’ I said ‘everything is ok no worries’ he was looking with asking eyes I explained ‘just some changes in my life’ He asked ‘like what’ he was smiling his face was same face the face that I have known the face that I have shared many things secrets I said ‘Like a boyfriend’ His expression changed He was looking at my face than seriously asked ‘is he here’ I said ‘yeah he wanted to come’ Xavier said ‘I should have understand when you hadnt hung up the phone’ I said ‘are you ok’ Xavier said ‘no I hope he is being careful about you’ His voice was showing that he is nervous I said ‘being careful?’ He said ‘yeah cuz he has a perfect girl’ I flushed and said ‘he freak it out when he heard about you’ Xavier smiled and said ‘like I was when I heard about him’ I said ‘no pls dont…’ but he cut me and said ‘tell me have you both did that’ I asked ‘what’ Than Rob’s voice came ‘he wants to know if I own you officially’ There was a different tone in his voice A tone that I didnt meet before I said ‘own me officially you mean…’ I was nervous so I couldnt go on Rob talked with a cold voice ‘yes we have done it’ and he kissed me I turned back to him than stopped as I saw Xavier’s look He was angry asked ‘you havent let her to come right’ Rob said ‘if to be honest I didnt want this but it seems like you are important for her’ Xavier smiled ‘as much as know so many things and make her come here’ Rob said ‘dont push your luck’ Xavier said ‘what if I do that’ I shout ‘Hell you both!’ They both turned to me ‘Xavier he is my love and Rob Xavier is someone from my past someone that I shared many many things I cant delete him’ They both calm down but stil nervous Rob came and kissed me on the lips I knew that he needs this than Xavier hugged me again tigther this time I said ‘now is everyone ok’ They said ‘yeah’ Xavier said ‘I was planning to talk with you alone’ I said ‘sorry but sure some other time thats a first for you both’ Rob said ‘alone’ His voice was showing he didnt like the idea I said ‘yes some other time’ with a normal voice He said ‘I cant let this’ I said ‘you will know where will I be who am I with isnt this enough’ Xavier said ‘this is the way she is dont try to change her’ I said ‘he is just being careful about me Xavier’ Rob’s eyes were looking different like angry but dancing with humour He said ‘you are in thourble’ to me and Xavier said to him ‘be nice to her’ Rob whispered to my ear ‘you will be on hard-fuck this time I will show you what can I do to you more’ I just whispered ‘blindfolded and tied up’ Rob smiled Xavier said ‘you will be nice to her or I come and find you believe me you dont want this’ Than Xavier said ‘whenever you wear this t-shirt something happens did you realize that’ I said ‘you mean that time.. Xavier pls dont bring it up again’ He said ‘it was not our fault’