MESSED-UP


Chapter 9


I said ‘I mean not seeing you for few days’ He said ‘why are you doing this’ I said ‘cuz you are making me loose myself I want to be with you always all the time I just cant even remember how was my life before you’ He said ‘do you think I remember’ I said ‘you cant be dazzled by me’ He said ‘you are complately unaware your effect on me however I gave you the clue’ I asked ‘do you mean taking me to your home’ He said ‘yeah I have never have thought how someone would looked like into my life’ I said ‘I really need to stay away from you to clean my mind up’ He asked ‘how many days’ I could feel the suffer in his voice as he didnt want me to go I said ‘I dont know may 3 or 5 days’ He said ‘dont leave’ I said ‘I am not leaving you I am gonna stay away thats it I need to find the balance’ He said ‘sleep with me tonight’ I said ‘another sex threath? another hard-fuck?’ He shook his head and said ‘For God’s sake no’ He was almost shouting Than his voice took a soft sexy tone ‘I mean sleep in my arms lie down next to me’ I asked ‘what did make you change like this’ He said ‘were you thinking that I only want you for sex’ My head was on me I said ‘yeah’ He was angry ‘I told you I dont want you just for it I told you that I love you’ I said ‘I love you too’ He wrapped his arms around me and we lied down to the bed than he started to sing to my ear His voice was so good It was making me feel relaxed His smell was divine I could stay like this forever but I was tired and I fall asleep It was a calm morning when I opened my eyes between his arms I kissed his shoulder and he opened his eyes I smiled He said ‘goodmorning my love’ I said ‘that was really nice’ and kissed him on the lips He said ‘did you decide to stay’ I said ‘I told you I have to go for a while’ He said ‘ok but where are you gonna go’ He was obviously want to know about it I bitted my bottom lip and said ‘I am gonna stay with Xavier’ He took his hands and said ‘do you want me to let you stay with a guy who takes you to a sex-party’ He was angry I said ‘he wasnt even awere of it and why are you so angry dont you trust me’ He said ‘I trust you but I dont trust him cuz I know he wants you’ I said ‘he is just a friend you know that’ He said ‘He wants you so I dont want you to stay with him’ I said ‘than I am gonna find a hotel but I wont tell it to you and I want to see him ok? He was angry He closed his eyes and shook his head I was waiting for his anwer I was nervous He said ‘you are just gonna see him and thats it nothing more’ I said ‘it will be like how we were when we have met’ I was putting my clothes into the bag He said ‘are you sure’ I said ‘yeah I am I told you he is my friend and he always acts that way’ He said ‘is he gonna hold you’ I rolled my eyes and said ‘I gotta go now’ He said ‘now?’ I said ‘yes you know I need to find a good hotel’ He asked ‘why dont you tell me the hotel’ He seemed a little grieved I said ‘cuz you will probably try to get me back’ He said ‘I need to know about you’ He was using his effect again I shook my head and said ‘I am gonna call you ok’ I looked at his face He was looking at me with pressed lips and burning eyes