RobPattinson-Sexonfire

MESSED-UP


Chapter 11

- Look I know we have argued but I really dont want to be alone

- So you called me?

- Yeah a kind of

- *smiled* Its ok I am gonna pick you up soon

- *smiled* ok

I walked to my room and just checked what I have to wear I decided to wear my gren v-neck sleeveless t-shirt with my jeans I turned to look myself on the mirror This was the t-shirt that tried in the cabin which he fucked me in it I flushed as the memory came to my mind I remember how he grabbed me to inside of the cabin and told me he wants me I have said no but he has been so surprised by it He has been looking broken I have been told him that I want him to do it He has been undecided but in the end he has been fucked me hard and fast in there I have been hardly kept myself quiet I shook my head and tried to clean my mind up before Xavier came He called me and said ‘I will be in there in 5 mins’ I said ‘Ok I am ready’ I sat down to the sofa This conversation was so normal Why it wasnt like this with Rob? I started to think again and there was a knock on the door I just went to open it but Xavier didnt make our traditional hug He was looking serious I said ‘Is there something wrong’ I was worried He said ‘No just there is something that I want to talk with you’

- What is that?

- I am not ready to tell it right now

- WHY?

- Cuz its important

- Ohh Ok but What are we gonna do now?

- What about a movie?

- It sounds good

We left for the teather When we have arrived we took a look and choose a movie It was a comedy movie as I dont feel like going to a romantic one There were almost 30 mins till the movie’s start He asked me ‘Are you hungry?’ I said ‘No I woke up late so I missed the breakfast’

- You are not looking good

- I am ok

- REALLY?

- Yeah may not so good but ok

- Thats because of Him

- Please stop with this

We have just started to walk and they announced the movie We turned back and took our places on our seats Movie was good but I couldnt laugh at all After the end Xavier told that he wants to talk with me He said ‘You are so much into him’ I said tell me something that I dont know’ and rolled my eyes

- There is something and it disturbs you I can see it Is it the sex thing
*with a careful voice*

- I dont know I have never felt like this before

- But you are running away and you came to me for that

- What’s your point?
*with a cold voice*

- I think this has a mean Have you ever thought that we can be more than friends

- N-no Pls D-dont do this

- Lets have something to drink

- Yeah I really need it

- Just think

- You know that I love him
*with a desparate voice*

He came with two drinks in his each hand and he handed one to me with an unreadable expression I drunk it fastly He said ‘Calm down Dont drink so fast’ I said ‘Dont Tell Me What To Do OK’ I was mad at him I took my second glass and drunk it fastly too than I asked for the third one He just fulled my glass again and I drunk it with one breath I said ‘One more’ He said ‘Dont’ I took the fourth drink and continued fort he fifth He frowned and said ‘ENOUGH’ I said ‘I am feeling free dont make me stop’ He didnt listen and took my glass from my hand He looked at me than suddenly started to kiss me on the lips I was shocked

As I said 'No’ to his face but he didnt seem to hear me I said ‘STOP’ I was almost shouting He didnt stop and pulled me closer I was trying to not let him I was trying to make him listen He grabbed my wrists as I was drunk and weak He kept kissing me I tried to push him away but I couldnt do it than I started to turn back to his kiss What the hell was I doing I found the angry voice inside me and said ‘STOP’ My voice was cold but hot with anger too I just want to kick him My phone started to ring I took a look and said ‘Shit’ It was Rob I hung it up and he asked ‘Where are you’ I said ‘What’ like I didnt hear the anger in his voice

MESSED-UP


Chapter 10



I went to him and kissed him passinotely He didnt stop and took me on him I said ‘no pls dont’ He said ‘but before you go…’ I said ‘if you do this I cant go’ He flashed me an evil grin and started to kiss me again I moan and said ‘pls dont’ with a voice which is weak and made him stop I said ‘I am gonna miss you’ He said ‘not as much as I am gonna miss you ’ with a deep voice I looked at him His eyes were keeping mines He was serious I said ‘you are making harder for me to go but I need this’ I was trying to be strong and I kissed him simply I took my bag than left without looking at him I walked Dont know how much I walked but than stopped I called Xavier and said I am free to meet He has known the place so he came and said ‘hey’ and holded me with carrying me as always he did I said ‘hi’ and we both smiled He said ‘so you broke up with him’ There was a hope in his voice I said ‘what no I definetly didnt’ He was acting like it was an unexpected thing He asked ‘than why are you looking for hotel’ I said ‘its just for 3 days’ He said ‘why are you doing this’ I said ‘well its hard to explain complicated even for me’ He said ‘wooww tell me what is so special in him’ It was like he is curious about this I said ‘he has everything that I can expect even…’ He said ‘lets get in the car I gotta take you to the hotel’ We both walked and got into the car Xavier asked ‘look I have to tell this to you but you are different since him’ He was not comfortable I could see that I said ‘like what’ He said ‘you were so free you were a kind of girl that does-what-she-knows’ I said ‘cuz noone was taking care of me like this before’ He said ‘he is controling you’ I said ‘actually thats why I took this break’ He said ‘how is he doing this’ I said ‘we shouldnt talk about it’ He said ‘tell me’ I said ‘Xavier he knows how to effect me’ I was telling a weakness and it was not easy Xavier said ‘you know you can tell me anything’ I said ‘he is doing it with sex’ Xavier was shocked and he said ‘dont tell me that he wants you to be his sub’ I said ‘no actually its not him its me’ Xavier shouted ‘what’ I said ‘shh’ He said ‘you what’ I said ‘I want to be like that for him’ His eyes widen and he shouted ‘What! Are you hearing what you are saying!’ I said ‘Forget about it I shouldnt have tell it to you’ My voice was not good as I disturbed by his reaction He was talking with a slow voice ‘ do you really want this do you really want to be his sub do you want him to fuck you like that’ He was talking you he is expecting me to say no I said ‘ I dont know thats why I am staying away from him’ with a normal voice He was stil in shock He said ‘I cant believe this’ I was feeling guilty I said ‘I think I beter go’ Xavier said ‘no dont go’ His voice was like he really dont want me to go but I said ‘no I have to go’ He said ‘ok let me take you to the hotel’ with a normal voice I said ‘ok’ We walked and got in the car We havent talked again till we came to the front of the hotel I said ‘I know you are mad but..’ He cutted me and said ‘lets talk about it later’ with a normal voice again I just got out of the car and got into the hotel I made my way to my room I was mad at myself as I said all those things to him I just lied down to my bed and started to listen some music I was trying not to think but thoughts were coming to hunt me Why did he tied me up? Why did I let him to do it? Why did he say that he always wants to fuck me hard? He has told me it was about me Did he love to see me like that? Why did I like when he orders when he becomes the boss? I was the free girl but why did this happen when it came to sex? I just realized I like to see him as my master and it was the thing that I affraid of What could I do about it? He was being hard on me and he has a dark side The *sir* word… All those girls were calling him like that? Did I want to be one of them? I have known the answer was no He told me that he didnt want this for me but why he didnt be gentle if he could do it? Too much to think about
I just left to have diner and when I got back to my room I took some phills which was gonna keep me sleep for hours I closed my eyes and slip into my sleep…
I opened my eyes and checked the clock out which was on the end table that next to my bed It was 13.10 Was this the other day? I looked out from the huge window The sun was shining I stared at it for a while than left fort he lunch with thoughts in my head I have chosen something little that I could eat I checked the restaurant out and find a silent corner at the back I slowly made my way to there and sat down to the little table I started to eat and think I was missing him I was missing his touch I was missing his eyes on me I shook my head and told myself ‘Just two days its just two fuckings days’ Being alone was not helping and my stomach was not able to accept more food I left before finished my lunch and called Xavier The phone rang twice and he hung up I said ‘Hey’ with a worried voice as I was waiting him to be mad at me

MESSED-UP


Chapter 9


I said ‘I mean not seeing you for few days’ He said ‘why are you doing this’ I said ‘cuz you are making me loose myself I want to be with you always all the time I just cant even remember how was my life before you’ He said ‘do you think I remember’ I said ‘you cant be dazzled by me’ He said ‘you are complately unaware your effect on me however I gave you the clue’ I asked ‘do you mean taking me to your home’ He said ‘yeah I have never have thought how someone would looked like into my life’ I said ‘I really need to stay away from you to clean my mind up’ He asked ‘how many days’ I could feel the suffer in his voice as he didnt want me to go I said ‘I dont know may 3 or 5 days’ He said ‘dont leave’ I said ‘I am not leaving you I am gonna stay away thats it I need to find the balance’ He said ‘sleep with me tonight’ I said ‘another sex threath? another hard-fuck?’ He shook his head and said ‘For God’s sake no’ He was almost shouting Than his voice took a soft sexy tone ‘I mean sleep in my arms lie down next to me’ I asked ‘what did make you change like this’ He said ‘were you thinking that I only want you for sex’ My head was on me I said ‘yeah’ He was angry ‘I told you I dont want you just for it I told you that I love you’ I said ‘I love you too’ He wrapped his arms around me and we lied down to the bed than he started to sing to my ear His voice was so good It was making me feel relaxed His smell was divine I could stay like this forever but I was tired and I fall asleep It was a calm morning when I opened my eyes between his arms I kissed his shoulder and he opened his eyes I smiled He said ‘goodmorning my love’ I said ‘that was really nice’ and kissed him on the lips He said ‘did you decide to stay’ I said ‘I told you I have to go for a while’ He said ‘ok but where are you gonna go’ He was obviously want to know about it I bitted my bottom lip and said ‘I am gonna stay with Xavier’ He took his hands and said ‘do you want me to let you stay with a guy who takes you to a sex-party’ He was angry I said ‘he wasnt even awere of it and why are you so angry dont you trust me’ He said ‘I trust you but I dont trust him cuz I know he wants you’ I said ‘he is just a friend you know that’ He said ‘He wants you so I dont want you to stay with him’ I said ‘than I am gonna find a hotel but I wont tell it to you and I want to see him ok? He was angry He closed his eyes and shook his head I was waiting for his anwer I was nervous He said ‘you are just gonna see him and thats it nothing more’ I said ‘it will be like how we were when we have met’ I was putting my clothes into the bag He said ‘are you sure’ I said ‘yeah I am I told you he is my friend and he always acts that way’ He said ‘is he gonna hold you’ I rolled my eyes and said ‘I gotta go now’ He said ‘now?’ I said ‘yes you know I need to find a good hotel’ He asked ‘why dont you tell me the hotel’ He seemed a little grieved I said ‘cuz you will probably try to get me back’ He said ‘I need to know about you’ He was using his effect again I shook my head and said ‘I am gonna call you ok’ I looked at his face He was looking at me with pressed lips and burning eyes

MESSED-UP

Chapter 8

Than we got out of the hospital I hugged Xavier before we got in the car and said ‘hope to see you soon’ He smiled and said ‘me too’ and Rob said ‘thanks’ to him I was surprised and I asked ‘what was that’ when we got in the car He said ‘he cares about you thats it I am stil mad at him’ Than I realized that it was beter to change the topic but he did it before me and asked ‘are you hungry’ I was not even aware if I am or not but I was hungry so I said ‘yeah I think’ He said ‘would you give me the honour of attending me in this lunch’ He was playful again I smiled and said ‘the honour is mine sir’ He didnt like the last word as I saw from his face expression but he didnt mention about it We came to an average place It was nice quiet and peaceful so I like it He just took the menu and I took it too and checked it out I said ‘you should choose’ He said ‘I have already chosen’ I was mad at him but I didnt want to loose his playful time I said ‘so no dessert?’ with the eyes that dancing with humour He said ‘I have a special plan for dessert actually’ His voice was like laughing at a private joke I smiled and said ‘do I wanna know it’ He laughed and said ‘you are gonna live it’ I flushed and our lunch came It was steak and red wine and we both started to eat in peace While we were leaving I said ‘now its time for dessert’ with an excitement in my voice He said ‘yeah I have plans for dessert, you are gonna be the dessert’ I said ‘what’ he said ‘we gotta g oto the kitchen at first’ than we came into the house I made my way through the kitchen He came with me He smiles –that damn naughty and sexy smile- and points me some caramel I asked ‘when did you..’ He cutted and said ‘when I learn that you like it’ I smiled and took some to my index finger He came and took my hand while I was licking it and he started to lick it too I said ‘I want it too’ He smiled and said ‘you are one greedy woman lets see what we can do with it’ He was playful and that voice was sexy He took some caramel to his middle finger I smiled and started to lick it than I started to suck his finger He like it and said ‘go on baby’ than got rid of my jeans I stoped and took his t-shirt off than I came his jeans I started to unbutton his jean and he throw it to the ground and took my t-shirt off He undo my bra and took my panties off slowly with touching me He made me sit over the workbench He throw his boxers to the ground and took some caramel to his middle finger again I started to suck and he said stop and told me to part my legs than he slided that finger inside me I cried out and said ‘god’ He said ‘you are so hot and so wet’ I blushed and he started to move I said ‘pls I want you inside me’ He said ‘this is going to be hard baby’ I cried out and begged ‘pls Rob pls’ Than he slid into me fastly and hardly I groan and he started to move gently I was moaning wanting more He whispered with that damn sexy voice ‘do you want more’ to my ear I said ‘pls’ He grabbed me each side of my belly and started to move He said ‘your fingers’ I put my fingers and started to make a circle like I did before I was feeling him more again He said ‘make that circle harder’ and started to fuck me fast and hard I was crying out and dying from pleasure I said ‘this is too much’ He said ‘hold on baby’ and pushed inside me harder, stronger and faster I stoped doing the circle he said ‘go on and do it hard’ I did as I am told I was feeling him more and more harder and harder I cried out and said ‘god Rob have some mercy on me’ He said ‘I told you that this is gonna be hard’ and pushed inside me really hard again He pulled out of me than I started to cry immidately When he saw my tears he looked like freak it out and asked with a worried voice ‘whats wrong did I hurt you’He was calm and ready to take care again I said ‘no I mean not like you think’ He said ‘tell me what the hell did I do wrong’ I said ‘why are you doing this to me’ He asked with a soft but suffering voice ‘what am I doing to you’ I said ‘you are taking my control from me you are doing it with sex’ He said ‘I am really sorry baby I am not doing it on purpose I just..’ I said ‘you just?’ He continued ‘I want you with that way but I am gonna be gentle next time I promise’ I said ‘like you can be less perfect look I am complately dazlled by you so I just need some distance’ He asked ‘what do you mean with distance’

Messed-Up

Chapter 7

I was holding his hand as I was affraid Than I realized that I was in a hospital when I opened my eyes I was about to talk so opened my mouth and he said ‘everything is ok my love’ I said ‘my love?’ He said ‘yeah’ and I heard someone is walking inside than I worried voice came ‘how is she?’ I realized that it was Xavier I said ‘I’m ok’ He came next to me and said ‘you finally opened your eyes’ I asked ‘since when I’m sleeping’ to both of them Rob said ‘for 13 hours and 42 mins’ I said ‘were you always in here’ They both said ‘yeah’ and I asked ‘did you count’ to Rob He said ‘yeah and I blame myself in every min’ I said ‘what why’ He said ‘you have fainted because of me’ I said ‘no its noth you its me I dont know how to handle with this thats not your fault’ He said ‘stop doing this to me dont take my fault on you’ And Xavier said ‘did she faint because of you’ I could feel the anger in his voice Rob said ‘yes’ I said ‘I hope you both not planning to fight’ They both said ‘no’ Xavier said ‘I need some fresh air’ I said ‘ok sure but you are gonna come back’ He said ‘I will’ than turned and left Rob was looking into my eyes and he said ‘do you know how much you are important to me Do you know what do you mean’ I decided to be honest and said ‘well not exacly’ He asked ‘how can I show you’ I said ‘stay with me let me know you more’ He smiled and said ‘but you were already in my house’ I said ‘what’ He said ‘you are the only one who knows my house out of my family and best friends’ I said ‘so the others werent in there’ He smiled and that sexy smile made me melt than said ‘yeah and you are the only woman that I sing while having sex’ I seemed like he loved it I said ‘your voice is like caramel soft,sweet its so beautiful’ He smiled and said ‘like you’ with a sweet-sexy voice I said ‘like me?’ There was a message like I dont believe in my voice He said ‘yeah you have a flawless silk skin and your taste is the best thing that I have ever seen’ His fingertips were on my cheek I bitted my lip and I said ‘really I mean you have had many girls but you are saying this for me’ He said ‘noone made me feel like you did’ His voice was so impressive an romantic I said ‘I stil dont understand what I have the others dont’ He said ‘I am gonna show you as soon as I have you’ I flushed He said ‘so you like caramel’ I said ‘yeah’ than couldnt help and go on ‘I want to taste it from you’ He smiled and said ‘are you planning to use my body for your naughty thoughts’ his eyes were dancing with humour I laughed and said ‘yeah as you are planning for mine’ He said ‘I have shown you a little what can I do to you’ I said ‘little’ He said ‘yeah I made you sensitive and I was hard on you but you were in a comfortable situation’ I said ‘like what’ He said ‘I havent fuck you on the ground or on a chair and I let you move’ I said ‘let me move’ He said ‘next time I am gonna show you a little more’
I flushed and we both were smiled than Xavier came back He asked ‘how are you’ I said ‘I’m good and its so nice you to be here’ He said ‘it was hard to convince him’ I said ‘but you are here for me right?’ He said ‘yeah I am’ and smiled Rob said ‘he was really worried about you’ I said ‘I can guess’ and continued ‘but isnt this enough for me to be here when are we gonna leave’ Rob said ‘you are fine we can leave now’ I said ‘pls I am really bored in this place’ He smiled and left to arrange my exit We were talking with Xavier He was telling me how much he worried form e I was telling that he is overreacting Jeez what was wrong with both of them Than Rob was back and I smiled when I saw him