MESSED-UP

CHAPTER 4

We both put our clothes on again and he started the engine I said ‘Rob nothing can hurt me more than that if you leave me’ He said ‘you are wrong’ he was talking like dark I asked ‘Why’ with a hope to see whats behind that side He said ‘One day will come and you will visit the set’ I said ‘So’ Rob said ‘Think that if its a bed scene You are gonna see me with another girl’ I said ‘Rob its your job I have to take it’ He said ‘You wouldnt have to take it if I wouldnt be famous’ I said ‘What Rob you are thinking with the opposite way of mine’ He said ‘What’ I said ‘Yeah if you wouldnt be famous I wouldnt even know that you are exists’ He said ‘You cant have a normal relationship with me’ I said ‘May I cant but what if thats what I want’ Rob said ‘You dont know what you let yourself to get into’ I said ‘I know’ with an automatic reaction He said ‘Tell me than’ He was nervous I said ‘I am just trying to be with someone that I shouldnt even dare to talk but somehow that one says he loves me and he has my everything’ He said ‘You are just stepping into a life which is shining on the black’ I said ‘I wont take step back’ He said ‘Dont be so sure’ I said ‘Why’ He said ‘Lets talk about something else now Tell me about your life before we have met’ I said ‘Well there was not too much difference after I came here you know studying hanging out with friends but sometimes I miss my family my mom my dad my little brother now I am away from them’ He said ‘Why did you came here for exacly’ I said ‘It was only for universty you know that I was studying at UCLA’ He said ‘So your universty is ending in this month you have two weeks’ I said ‘Yeah but I havent thought something to say them’ Rob looked into my eyes and said ‘You shouldnt stay here for me I dont worth that’ I couldnt keep it inside and said ‘Jesus Rob what makes you think that you dont worth that’ I was feeling like why he just dont understand There was no patient in my voice He looked into my eyes ‘I am not perfect but people believe that I dont even know how this -fucked famous up- life started’ I said ‘Thats your problem ok may you are not perfect but you are really good and you are not seeing it’ He said ‘Are you saying this for a man who cant even be nice to you’ I asked ‘Being nice to me’ He said ‘What am I doing to you while I am inside you’ I shocked and asked ‘Do you think you hurt me’ He said ‘It would be easier with someone else someone who can be kind’ He was saying this like he has thought about it before like he really believed it I cutted him and said ‘Who told you I want someone else’ My voice was calm but strong He said ‘You dont even know about this out of me god I cant believe that I tied you up’ I said ‘If to be honest it was hot’ He said ‘Ok but what I have done to you in this car you were screaming I could be gentle to you but I always want to fuck you hard and I am doing it’ He was talking like he is trying to convince met hat he is not good for me I said ‘Why do you always want to fuck me hard’ –I couldnt believe that I was talking like this- He said ‘Its because of this Fuck-me-now look’ I said ‘You mean you want to do it now’ He pulled over We were in front of his house He said ‘Yeah and I need to have you soon lets go inside and have some bath’ he winked and I melted He put his arm on my shoulder so I felt his body’s length against mine He was so yummy in those tight jeans and black t-shirt I said ‘You know that you are the only thing that I want’ He said ‘I know baby and thats why I am scared I am important for you more than I deserve’ He was serious while saying this I said ‘You worth that believe me’ My voice was full of with the message *believe it* He said ‘Sometimes you are not that relax with me’ He was talking like its an important question for him I said ‘Because you are over-thinking sometimes and I cant decide when you will do that’ He was unlocking the door We got inside and He said ‘I want you to be mine but I want to go when I want I cant do both I told you that I have never been into a girl that much I dont know how I feel like this I love you and I dont want to think about future I just want to live you now’ I said ‘Do it than’ He said ‘Give me your jacket’ He helped me to took it off And I took his jacket off He started to kiss me The kiss got hotter and hotter I took his t-shirt off than he took mine off His hands came to the buttons of my jeans and he unbuttoned it so I throw them to the floor I kissed his neck touched there than moved my way down and unbuttoned his jeans We were about to come to the bathroom He went to the big hottub and opened the water He added foam The smell was sweet and welcoming He undo my bra with one move I only left with my panties He said ‘Strip them for me’ I said ‘Ok but how’ He said ‘Just do it as you feel think what you feel for me’ I closed my eyes and tried to concentrate His hands were on each side of my belly so I concentrate on them I touched his fingers and did a little dance between them I turned my back to him took a step beck we were so close than I turned to him again hook my index finger to one side than turned back again and opened my legs Hook the other other side as I was closing my legs I took a step back to him and met with his fingers again and slid it under them and throw it to the ground He said ‘Now I want to be inside you do you know how sexy you look’ I said ‘No’ He made me turn to him grabbed my leg and wrapped it around him I was feeling his need I got closer He said ‘I dont want to slid into you in here I am gonna take you in there’