MESSED-UP


Chapter 11

- Look I know we have argued but I really dont want to be alone

- So you called me?

- Yeah a kind of

- *smiled* Its ok I am gonna pick you up soon

- *smiled* ok

I walked to my room and just checked what I have to wear I decided to wear my gren v-neck sleeveless t-shirt with my jeans I turned to look myself on the mirror This was the t-shirt that tried in the cabin which he fucked me in it I flushed as the memory came to my mind I remember how he grabbed me to inside of the cabin and told me he wants me I have said no but he has been so surprised by it He has been looking broken I have been told him that I want him to do it He has been undecided but in the end he has been fucked me hard and fast in there I have been hardly kept myself quiet I shook my head and tried to clean my mind up before Xavier came He called me and said ‘I will be in there in 5 mins’ I said ‘Ok I am ready’ I sat down to the sofa This conversation was so normal Why it wasnt like this with Rob? I started to think again and there was a knock on the door I just went to open it but Xavier didnt make our traditional hug He was looking serious I said ‘Is there something wrong’ I was worried He said ‘No just there is something that I want to talk with you’

- What is that?

- I am not ready to tell it right now

- WHY?

- Cuz its important

- Ohh Ok but What are we gonna do now?

- What about a movie?

- It sounds good

We left for the teather When we have arrived we took a look and choose a movie It was a comedy movie as I dont feel like going to a romantic one There were almost 30 mins till the movie’s start He asked me ‘Are you hungry?’ I said ‘No I woke up late so I missed the breakfast’

- You are not looking good

- I am ok

- REALLY?

- Yeah may not so good but ok

- Thats because of Him

- Please stop with this

We have just started to walk and they announced the movie We turned back and took our places on our seats Movie was good but I couldnt laugh at all After the end Xavier told that he wants to talk with me He said ‘You are so much into him’ I said tell me something that I dont know’ and rolled my eyes

- There is something and it disturbs you I can see it Is it the sex thing
*with a careful voice*

- I dont know I have never felt like this before

- But you are running away and you came to me for that

- What’s your point?
*with a cold voice*

- I think this has a mean Have you ever thought that we can be more than friends

- N-no Pls D-dont do this

- Lets have something to drink

- Yeah I really need it

- Just think

- You know that I love him
*with a desparate voice*

He came with two drinks in his each hand and he handed one to me with an unreadable expression I drunk it fastly He said ‘Calm down Dont drink so fast’ I said ‘Dont Tell Me What To Do OK’ I was mad at him I took my second glass and drunk it fastly too than I asked for the third one He just fulled my glass again and I drunk it with one breath I said ‘One more’ He said ‘Dont’ I took the fourth drink and continued fort he fifth He frowned and said ‘ENOUGH’ I said ‘I am feeling free dont make me stop’ He didnt listen and took my glass from my hand He looked at me than suddenly started to kiss me on the lips I was shocked

As I said 'No’ to his face but he didnt seem to hear me I said ‘STOP’ I was almost shouting He didnt stop and pulled me closer I was trying to not let him I was trying to make him listen He grabbed my wrists as I was drunk and weak He kept kissing me I tried to push him away but I couldnt do it than I started to turn back to his kiss What the hell was I doing I found the angry voice inside me and said ‘STOP’ My voice was cold but hot with anger too I just want to kick him My phone started to ring I took a look and said ‘Shit’ It was Rob I hung it up and he asked ‘Where are you’ I said ‘What’ like I didnt hear the anger in his voice